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Low-Grade Chaos Fixed With Arsenic Paint

When your life is on hold, paint something.

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Leonora Epstein
Mar 25, 2026
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We have a slightly unconventional newsletter this week (and yes, late—my apologies). The past few weeks have been a particular cocktail of anticipation and low-grade chaos: waiting on a potentially life-changing answer alongside some health issues that have been…persistent. More on both in a moment, but I thought I’d take this time to talk a bit about where where my brain is at these days.

We returned back to our Pasadena home on January 1st. It was a breath of fresh air after 4+ months in NYC. “You seem like a different person,” a friend who doesn’t even know me that well texted me after just two IG Story posts from my front porch. (If you’re new here, in a nutshell, we rented our house and moved in with my parents in NYC following a series of unfortunate career blows and financial uncertainty. We’re back now, trying to “make it work” but, um, basically living off savings.)

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